Sunday, January 24

寂寞

朋友多 不代表知心
形影不离 不代表懂我
在这里 面对陌生又熟悉的脸孔
有时候 还真是寂寞呢

不懂是巧合还是缘分
在这里交到的朋友
不是土生土长kl人 就是外国来的朋友
在异地生活的感触
在陌生环境的茫然
大半本地朋友都不懂呢
听到我是从北海来后还直说 哇 好远呢
不过
幸好适应了
适应后日子好过多了
寂寞减少了 偶尔的孤单似乎也没那么难熬了
从来不曾对离家求学这事恐惧或忐忑
只有预料中的 寂寞
朋友多是多 那又如何。。?
始终碰不到心底深处啊
或许现在相识连一个月都不到 说这个还嫌早
可是一年后 大家不都又分道扬镳 各奔前程了吗
一想到这 那颗心啊 就交不出来了
我啊 还真是个自私的朋友


不过无所谓了
就算不交心 这仅仅只用一年耕耘的友谊
我相信还是可以很灿烂的



p/s:我超爱番茄的说..^^!

Thursday, January 21

bored

A lot of article hasn't been finished yet
A lot of grammar workbook hasn't been touched yet
yea.. don be surprise as my english is really worse than you can imagine
(Hmm.. I'm not so sure is the grammar I'm using now is right or not too.. =.=)
ok continue
A lot of things hasn't been prepared yet
oh yeah I almost forget that tomorrow I'll have the bio quiz
Math quiz at monday
Chemistry quiz at tuesday
YEAH congratulate me
I haven't prepare anything yet
I know I have to prepare
I know I have to study
I know I shouldn't continue stucking at here
I know I should off my laptop NOW
I know.. Yea.. Juz simply knowing and without any action
lalala~


Actually guys..
I'm STRUGGLING
I'm trying to get with the life without activities
I really trying it hardly
But it's really TOO BORED for me!
However..
ALL lecturers told me that
WORK HARD in your foundation
You have to compete with EVERYBODY who is taking foundation to enter the topest uni
You must take your course seriously
And you know what.. ?
I have quiz almost every weeks
EVERY SUBJECTS!
I don't want to neglect my coursework
I don't want to drag in any social problems or whatever freaking things
I don't want to waste my mummy's money sending me here by busying other things but not my coursework
I don't want to disappointed them
I don't want to enmesh by many many different stupid activities
So.. ?
No answer
I know it depends on time arrangement (I'm not worry about this.. I have a great skill of this..^^)
I know it depends on my own willing (Erm.. )
I know it depends on what I want
Oh this is a good question
I found that me myself also don't know what I want
God bless me



Friends ask me to join clubs or society
Sports? Games?!
No thanks dude
I never interested in these sweating activities
except dancing.. ^^
Yea I WANT DANCING
DANCING DANCING DANCING!!!!

But I can't find dance club in sunway uni
Sob.. T_T
I think maybe actually it's exist
But I didn't ask for more details
Ok it's my fault I know it
Hmm.. There are 2 dance studio nearby my house if I'm not mistaken
Please believe me that I really have the passion and enthusiasm to register
But..
It needs $$$$$$$$!
waaaaa~
I don't have any extra money to spend at this activity la
And oh gosh
You know what.. ?
I'm FATTER now!!!!!!!!!!!!
Because of stop dancing
All my lemak lemak.. oops! is FAT
held gathering at my hips! thighs! and overall my body
Oh.. I really can't bear with them
I lost my mind everytime I'm looking how they deride and mock me
ARGHH!!


ok gal
Boredom and frustration have been let off
I'm happy now
CHEERS UP.. ^^ and good night!

Saturday, January 16

The Climb

I can almost see it
That dream I'm dreamin' it
There's a voice inside my head saying
You'll never reach it
Every step I'm taking
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shakin
But I, I gotta keep tryin
Gotta keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about hoe fast I get there
Ainét about what's waitin on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down but
No I'm not breaking
I may not know it'
But these are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most
just gotta keep going
And I, I gotta be strong
Just keep pushing on cause

Wednesday, December 23

悬挂


一颗心就这样 悬挂在那里
纵使被绳索牢牢抓住了
却还是在那摇摇晃晃 定不下来
你的存在就好象那绳索
紧紧地抓着我的心
却始终给不了我足够的安全感
想大声的呐喊 想疯狂的奔跑
想面向海风大声地喊着
我不在乎你
常常希望能当机立断 果决些 断然些
但只要想到必须断了我们之间那薄弱得可悲的缘分
除了不舍 还是不舍
第一次 我狠不下心断了这藕断丝连
第一次 我想这样继续装聋作哑
我知道这不是好的征兆 那又怎样呢。。?
我早已失去选择的力气了

Tuesday, December 22

向日葵盛开的夏天

樱花飘过了秋天 你我分开的季节
眼泪疼了 无法表达
反复在我心深处的挣扎
伞为你开 却被你收

踏在青色柏油路 忘记走习惯的路
害怕了吗 想念你啊
夏天的向日葵不说心事
伤感的字 乱了理智 无法掩饰

感谢你陪伴我 走过了每一步
花终究会凋落 没办法再呵护
这真的是一段 很难熬的路
触碰感情深处 我才读懂幸福

经过一阵雷雨 太阳依旧灿烂
雨后的向日葵 会安静的陪伴
你说过的每一句 会好好记住
在陌生的未来 我会更勇敢

Sunday, December 20

没有主题

每一个人都有属于自己的方向
没有谁能够陪谁到永远
更没有人会是谁的谁到永远
每一个人都有自己的路要走
无论再苦 再累
也决不回头
因为我们坚信
我们的每一次选择 每一个决定
都是灿烂我们人生的烟火
就算遗憾悔恨
也要抬头挺胸 深信自己的人生是独一无二的


人生或许会有许多转捩点
每一次站在十字路口前的犹豫与不安
并不会因为曾经的经验而稍微减少
惶恐的准备展翅翱翔
不舍的就算在起飞的前一秒
还贪心的奢望你的出现
复杂的心情 把当初的勇气没收了
我真的好想 放心地 不顾一切地向前冲
可以吗。。?



好啦 不想去想那些乱七八糟的东西了
其实只是忽然有感而发 别担心我
不懂是因为病倒了还是累坏了
4个小时车程不是睡觉就是胡思乱想
嗯嗯 幸好有想开有放下
再执着下去连我自己都开始讨厌自己起来了呢

至于旅行假期的一切一切嘛
本来真的想好好写一篇的
本来啦 嘿嘿
可是真的发生很多很多有趣的事
第一次和朋友组个小组旅行
第一次要下巴士时找不到鞋子
第一次坐只有5个人的海盗船
第一次在1个小时半玩完云顶的户外活动
第一次自己找巴士从云顶去kl
第一次想不开虐待自己的肺跑到star walk去走走
第一次从timesquare走到sungeiwang再走到star walk还懵懵不知道
第一次乱乱搭巴士去不同的mall逛
最重要的是。。
我第一次连续好几天都在逛街!
了解我的人都知道我一点都不喜欢逛街
逛街很麻烦
但这几天还好啦 除了脚酸之外
还蛮有收获的说
这真的是拜我的战友所赐
还有好多好多哦
想到手就酸 很懒
所以想知道的话就来问我啦
给你们机会关心我一下。。^^

Monday, December 14

报到

哎呀 真的好久没上来咯
想想 嗯 有一个多月了
蛮想念这里的说。。^^


今天最后一天考完
却惊讶的发现我竟然一点兴奋都没有
adui 至少一点点嘛 真是的
回到家 懒懒的休息了很多下后才开始整理行李
哦 对了 差点忘了说
我今晚就出发去云顶咯。。^^
好久没旅行了 有一点点的期待+兴奋



至于生活应嘛 其实真的有点累
不过我小小一个医药也敢喊累
真怕被打 哈哈 =p
嗯 本来还以为这次没参与筹备
参与感不够 结果在闭幕时还是很没用地哭了出来
看着今年各小组工委
真的好好好想念去年的课程组哦
甘蔗 鸽子 柔柔 恬恬
我好想你们哦!!
快快出现在我面前让我看好不好。。?


好啦 要准备去云顶了
走先咯 拜拜。。^^