我也不懂自己在写些什么

放假回来将近一个月了
见了一些朋友   聊了一些近况
很自然   很轻松   很棒
唯一遗憾的是   大家好像都变得比较不快乐了


也许是升学的压力   人际关系的烦恼
或是感情方面的问题  
导致连很平凡的每一天   都看起来不可爱了
为什么呢。。？我好想大大声的问

或许被烦恼困扰着的朋友会很生气
觉得我什么都不懂 -- 但我真的不懂

每一天早上睁开眼来   看看阳光看看自己
还能轻轻地呼吸着   很幸福不是吗？
每一天看着身边所爱的人平平安安好好地活着
没有天灾没有人祸降临   很幸福不是吗？
每一天走在马路上对不熟悉的陌生人微笑
没有战争没有死亡  很幸福不是吗？


虽然我们偶尔会被压力压得喘不过气
但深呼吸   慢慢地抬起头   静下心
就会发现这并不是绝境  
我们没有被逼着面对束手无策   无可奈何的情况
我们究竟在难过什么？
哀怨什么   不满什么   抗议什么？
我们为什么永远都学不会满足这两个字。。？

战争国家的难民  
被天灾折磨的灾民
活在贫困国家的贫民
他们哪一个不是无辜的。。？
他们哪一个拥有选择的机会了。。？
一个都没有
他们用尽力气   只为求得生存的一口气
即使面对如此绝境   也从未想要放弃


我们呢。。？



我们的人生中
有父有母   有家人   有朋友
却一直学不来孝顺友善   学不来珍惜身边所爱的人
殊不知有些人   想爱   也来不及了
我们的生活里
有饱饭吃  有暖衣穿   有舒适的住处
却总是觉得不够不够
有了车   就想要更名贵的
有了衣   就贪要最名牌的
我们从来都没想过   在我们挥霍奢侈的当而
有多少的人   正在受苦受难挨饿受冻


讽刺的是
如此幸福的我们   其实脆弱得不堪一击
小小的压力   稍稍的不顺心   或是些些的挫折
就轻而易举地将我们打垮
放弃生命  放弃所爱和爱我们的人
如此草率   不尊重生命的态度
我才发现
活在象牙塔里的我们   其实是最可悲的




因为贪
我们永远都不了解何谓知足
总是拼了命地想要掠夺不属于我们的
却同时也看不清自己已经拥有的
因为嗔
我们永远都学不会宽恕
每天每天   都让自己和身边的人过得不快乐
因为痴
我们不明白何谓放下
一昧只懂得执著   甚至钻牛角尖
到最后把自己逼进了死胡同  
再为自己的逃避找借口


所以啊
我们已经拥有最幸福的一切了
就算遇上烦恼或不如意
那又怎样。。？笑一笑
其实真的没什么大不了的~

not a bad thing

well if I had this type of living style in the past few years

I believe I would scream and jump all the way

asking everyone beside me -- 'why am I so bad.. ? Keep wasting my time'

yeah time is precious I know

but honestly I don really dislike or unsatisfied with my life now

at least till this moment

I spent one week to prepare my IELTS test

sounds ridiculous right.. ?

I have the same feeling too

but in fact I spent more time on reading novels (Percy Jackson's series for the 3rd times) XD

cooking with my sister and maid

online watching movies and dramas

I indeed feel good with these activities.. ^^

(though they may be considered as wasting-time-activities)

btw my sister once asked me an interesting question in a curious tone

'y u hadn't meet any friends since u were back.. ?'

I said  no no my dear, I attended one small and warm gathering before

but to be honest this is a new record for me to meet friends merely once after I've been back for more than a week

AHAHAHA !!!!

it's totally not my style -- always keep myself busy and busy and endless busy

duh so I asked myself

'what made u change.. ?'

I think

maybe it's because I know that I have a abt 3 months holiday -- so I'm not rushing my schedule 

or perhaps I just feel tired of socializing

I do love socialize

but not all the times

though friends are still very important

trips and vacations are urgently needed

I'm still damn eager to have gatherings

I've made my mind to give my mind a break

At least a short break would be great too

anyway I feel so happy to find out that 

I'm actually able to slow down my pace if I wish

just simply look at everyone and everything around me with a calm manner

figure out lovely things that I've missed before

this kind of life is somewhat better than what I thought

I FEEL GOOD.. ^^

p/s: tomorrow is my dad and mum 21st anniversary and I plan to make them some olio spaghetti for celebration, wish everything goes smoothly.. !