美梦

昨天朋友问我说 喂 你有没有男朋友啊。。？
我大笑三声给他听后说 没有
然后我就后悔了。。T_T
为什么没有啊？
为什么不找一个呢？
还是假假讲想专心学业？(=.=..我是真的想专心好么!)
哎呀！一定是你条件太高了
被我讲中了对不对。。？哇哈哈!我就知道(知道个屁啊。。!)
一大堆有的美的问题接蹱而来
哦天 那一刻我真的好想时间重来
我一定会大大生给他个善意的谎言来拯救我可怜的耳朵
不过我比较喜欢当场掐死他的感觉啦


话说回来 男朋友嘛。。就应该
在我难过时 知道该怎么哄我开心
在我开心时 知道该怎么陪我笑 陪我闹
在我沮丧时 会给我一个暖暖的怀抱 静静的陪着我
在我生气时 知道让我消气先最重要 而不是让我在气头上说一大堆乱七八糟的气话
在我软弱时 我会知道他的怀抱是我最坚固的避风港
在我犹豫时 我知道他的信任从没变
最重要的是
在我需要他时 我知道他一直都在 从没转身离开过
再来
不管什么时候 他都会走在我身后 用他无声的温柔陪着我
最讨厌那些将女朋友丢在后头 只懂一个劲地自己走 这种人最最最可恶了！
好好好 继续继续
他会知道 我难过时最爱吃些什么来让自己开心
他会知道 我受伤时会怎样替自己疗伤
他会知道 什么时候的我是真的坚强 真的开心
他会知道 什么时候的我需要怎么样的他
他可以很幼稚 但纯粹是想哄我开心时而表现出来的
该认真的时候 他必须很成熟 很可靠 让人很安心


我知道我不美 人家都说。。
眼睛深邃最好看了 我只有单眼皮
嘴巴小小最可爱了 我只有一个不小的嘴
瓜子脸最完美了 我头大脸圆也不是第一天的事了
皮肤一白遮三丑 我的黑是直接将十丑全曝露出来了
所以啊 虽然我没有很好看 但他绝对不可以因为这样而变心
路上看看美女养养眼是好事
但不可以看一看看一看 看到连一颗心也飞到不知所踪去

最最重要的是。。
他不会随随便便放开握着我的手
握着彼此的手 就等于握着对方的珍惜和爱情
若他选择轻易放开 那他就不值得拥有我的珍惜
当珍惜也不存在时 爱情早已随风飘逝 留恋也只会徒增伤害



要懂我 要爱我 要疼我 要宠我 要珍惜我
哈哈 真是个不可思议和几乎不可能的梦啊
曾经我遇过一个懂我 爱我 疼我 宠我的人
但最后他不珍惜我 选择亲手放掉我们的爱情
所以现在 我就。。
继续发着这个美梦吧！

寂寞

朋友多 不代表知心
形影不离 不代表懂我
在这里 面对陌生又熟悉的脸孔
有时候 还真是寂寞呢

不懂是巧合还是缘分
在这里交到的朋友
不是土生土长kl人 就是外国来的朋友
在异地生活的感触
在陌生环境的茫然
大半本地朋友都不懂呢
听到我是从北海来后还直说 哇 好远呢
不过
幸好适应了
适应后日子好过多了
寂寞减少了 偶尔的孤单似乎也没那么难熬了
从来不曾对离家求学这事恐惧或忐忑
只有预料中的 寂寞
朋友多是多 那又如何。。？
始终碰不到心底深处啊
或许现在相识连一个月都不到 说这个还嫌早
可是一年后 大家不都又分道扬镳 各奔前程了吗
一想到这 那颗心啊 就交不出来了
我啊 还真是个自私的朋友


不过无所谓了
就算不交心 这仅仅只用一年耕耘的友谊
我相信还是可以很灿烂的



p/s:我超爱番茄的说..^^!

bored

A lot of article hasn't been finished yet
A lot of grammar workbook hasn't been touched yet
yea.. don be surprise as my english is really worse than you can imagine
(Hmm.. I'm not so sure is the grammar I'm using now is right or not too.. =.=)
ok continue
A lot of things hasn't been prepared yet
oh yeah I almost forget that tomorrow I'll have the bio quiz
Math quiz at monday
Chemistry quiz at tuesday
YEAH congratulate me
I haven't prepare anything yet
I know I have to prepare
I know I have to study
I know I shouldn't continue stucking at here
I know I should off my laptop NOW
I know.. Yea.. Juz simply knowing and without any action
lalala~


Actually guys..
I'm STRUGGLING
I'm trying to get with the life without activities
I really trying it hardly
But it's really TOO BORED for me!
However..
ALL lecturers told me that
WORK HARD in your foundation
You have to compete with EVERYBODY who is taking foundation to enter the topest uni
You must take your course seriously
And you know what.. ?
I have quiz almost every weeks
EVERY SUBJECTS!
I don't want to neglect my coursework
I don't want to drag in any social problems or whatever freaking things
I don't want to waste my mummy's money sending me here by busying other things but not my coursework
I don't want to disappointed them
I don't want to enmesh by many many different stupid activities
So.. ?
No answer
I know it depends on time arrangement (I'm not worry about this.. I have a great skill of this..^^)
I know it depends on my own willing (Erm.. )
I know it depends on what I want
Oh this is a good question
I found that me myself also don't know what I want
God bless me



Friends ask me to join clubs or society
Sports? Games?!
No thanks dude
I never interested in these sweating activities
except dancing.. ^^
Yea I WANT DANCING
DANCING DANCING DANCING!!!!
But I can't find dance club in sunway uni
Sob.. T_T
I think maybe actually it's exist
But I didn't ask for more details
Ok it's my fault I know it
Hmm.. There are 2 dance studio nearby my house if I'm not mistaken
Please believe me that I really have the passion and enthusiasm to register
But..
It needs $$$$$$$$!
waaaaa~
I don't have any extra money to spend at this activity la
And oh gosh
You know what.. ?
I'm FATTER now!!!!!!!!!!!!
Because of stop dancing
All my lemak lemak.. oops! is FAT
held gathering at my hips! thighs! and overall my body
Oh.. I really can't bear with them
I lost my mind everytime I'm looking how they deride and mock me
ARGHH!!


ok gal
Boredom and frustration have been let off
I'm happy now
CHEERS UP.. ^^ and good night!

The Climb

I can almost see it
That dream I'm dreamin' it
There's a voice inside my head saying
You'll never reach it
Every step I'm taking
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shakin
But I, I gotta keep tryin
Gotta keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about hoe fast I get there
Ainét about what's waitin on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down but
No I'm not breaking
I may not know it'
But these are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most
just gotta keep going
And I, I gotta be strong
Just keep pushing on cause